When can I let go of "you"?  I thought university will allow me to start a new life and forget everything.  Had such a fun time at Warwick, such a good party yesterday, but in the end, ran out of energy to suppress my memory.  It's hard to forget, it's painful to face it... How long do I have still have to be painful for?

I really don't know how to cope with breaking up, especially she is my first and I still love her.

We've been really really good friends for like 2 years, we started a relationship less than a year ago, but now ended...all because of her family, and my family background.  We had to break up all because of me never had my real mum, and family is poor. We can't even be friends anymore.

That day, I received a letter that I will receive scholarship money from my study, I was so happy to tell her, I told her I will continue to study hard and get rich so her mum would accept me. As she pushes me away, telling me to leave her alone, I stood there, didn't know what to do.

We've spent so much time in this place, no matter where I go, I see her, I want to cry, but I keep telling myself not to. When I was little, my dad told me, I simply go to sleep whenever I'm unhappy, I tried and yet I can't. I usually play the piano when I'm not happy, but I can't play it properly, I keep seeing me playing with her.

I really don't know how to deal with it...it's just too painful.